Secrets

Everyone has secrets, right?
What is one thing that you really want to say, but don't want to be judged about?
But don't want to be rejected about?
I'm not sure if I do or not.
I mean you guys don't know who I am,
the whole 0 people that read this.
And you don't know how old I am.
So I guess I have a few little secrets.
But you know my views.
You know my opinions, or some of them.
And if you keep reading, you'll know more and more.
So I mean, the name and face and age don't really matter, do they?
I mean, unless you care about that stuff.
Maybe I'm "Too old" or "Too young" to even have the views that I do.
Maybe I'm too ugly or too pretty to be as dumb or smart as I am.
Maybe if you knew my name, if you knew my face, my age, my body,
Maybe you wouldn't like me as much.
Maybe you would like me more.
Maybe, just maybe, you'd fall in love.
But you'll never know that.
You're online.
I can't see you,
You can't see me.
So why are you reading this?
I don't think you are.
I don't think anyone does.
I like to think I make a difference.
But I don't.
Everyone wants to think they make a difference.
But about 80% don't.
That's a lie.
EVERYONE makes a difference.
No matter what you think of yourself.
YOU MAKE A DIFFERENCE IN SOMEONE/THING'S LIFE!
You may think you suck.
But everything you do has an after effect.
Everything you say.
Everything you feel
or want
or need
or love.
You do matter.
YOU MATTER.
That's why it boggles my mind when people want to kill themselves.
I've been tired with life before.
Hell, I've cut before and hurt myself on purpose.
I get why people do it.
They want to be distracted from the pain they feel.
They want to be in control of SOMETHING finally.
It's an unhealthy outlet.
I hate to hear or see that someone is being hurt.
Don't put people down.
Don't hurt on purpose.
And if you can, don't hurt by accident either.
Allthough I know the definition of accident.
And everyone makes them.
Don't be ashamed of accidents that you've made.
As long as you see that they were wrong,
then it doesn't matter so much.
I don't know.
I never know.
Who knows?